...Ain't got no time for that!!! Call me Overweight instead ;)
Yep at 78.3kg and a BMI of 29.1, I have graduated from obese and am now considered overweight. Who cares that a BMI of 29.1 means I am quite a bit overweight, because the fact is I have not been JUST "overweight" in a long long lonngggggggg time! So I will take that overweight label and eat it up happily with a big smile on my face...and a side of "Quest" protein bar and a side of coconut water (at least 30 minutes after my protein bar, of course!). At 78.3kg, this takes my total weight loss to 41.4kg and means I need to lose another 11.3kg to get to my goal of 67kg. Funnily enough, my dietician recently reminded me that my pre-surgery goal was 75kg, which I have nearly achieved. With only a few kg's to go, I know that I am not ready to stop yet, I want to be smaller, fitter, more toned and get a stronger core. Although I have been reminded and warned against focusing on a goal weight in kg, I know that I still check the scales daily. How to stop??@#$#%^$^?
So, I suppose it comes as no surprise that I have been extremely lazy with the blog recently. I have received many angry messages from friends and a few emails from readers who have been waiting to hear what has been going on in my crazy little Twentysix Bites life, but the truth is, I have just been having toooooo much fun trying to make up for what some would say is lost time. I tend not to sit on the computer writing about my life or the life I want, because I am getting closer to getting there and I just want to keep getting closer! Don't get me wrong, my happy little world still has it's ups and downs... BUT...there is no doubt that I have been riding a pretty good honeymoon high for the last 6 to 7 months. I didn't think much would be able to bring me down for a while until recently where I seem to have hit a bit of a stall. A mental stall, an emotional stall, an energy stall and a weight loss stall. My weight loss has slowed righhhttttt down to a few hundred grams a week for the first time since I started the process, so while I can honestly say that I am ok with this, I know that the next few months are going to be super hard as I creep closer and closer to goal. So what is affecting my mental, emotional and energy state? I am not sure exactly..... this is something I am slowly trying to reconcile. What to do! Such is life! Ce' la Vi! I will get over it and be happy as Larry in a few days I am sure (Watch this space!).
Ok! Back on to me and what has been happening in my Twentysix Bites world. First things first - Dating life = pretty much the same non-existent existence I had before, though with more flirting. Flirting is nice, but isn't getting me anywhere at the moment. So I am sorry to disappoint but this blog is going to be staying PG rated for a loonnggggg time! You are going to have to get your raunchy stories from someone else, or hold out for '50 Shades of Grey' which is being released in just over a week! Terrible book, but I still want to watch the move - go figure! ...Life of a single lady ;)
While jumping the gun on the romance front, I have very so rudely forgotten to wish you all a Happy New Years! I can't believe it is now 2015...still keep writing 2014 on documents by mistake. Time just goes so fast nowadays. Good thing I am finally living life to a much fuller extent! How did everyone go over Christmas? Did you gain, maintain or lose weight? Did you treat yourself? I was pretty good over Christmas break and still managed to lose a bit, despite the drinks and slightly more indulgent foods. I know that some people think that you can't have any of the "naughty" foods at all, but I like the idea that they are just "sometime" foods which may require a bit more exercise after consumption. On that basis, I didn't eat everything that was on offer at Christmas as I wouldn't have been able to fit it all in, but I did pick some treats and have bits of them (even dessert!). The biggest way I cheated was that I did very slowly space out a bit of entrée, main and dessert so I could fit a bit more of each course in. Usually I would have my meal within a 20-30 minute period and that would be the end of meal time. Over Christmas, this time frame was stretched to about an hour or so, which allowed grazing and a slightly larger intake. Not necessarily the best choice, and certainly not a choice I can afford to make all the time as I don't want to stretch my tummy/pouch, but I was careful not to over indulge....promise!
The biggest changes since my last post has been the extreme loss of hair (I have lost almost a quarter), and loss of nail strength (they just keep breaking), which I have been experiencing. Luckily the hair loss is evenly distributed from around my head so it is not just one big clump from one spot which has been lost, and I have been blessed with curly hair which generally looks fuller than straight hair. Needless to say, I have not been straightening my hair often recently. I so often think about taking photos of the hair which covers the shower, bathroom floor, sink and hairbrush each morning, but it is just a bit to overwhelming. I am going to look for some supplements to help with this, but apparently by increasing my folate I should assist in restoring the state of these things.... folate tablets are now a morning ritual...
Oh gosh, I really should be more consistent with giving updates because I am bit overwhelmed with all I want to share with you. I think I may need to break this all down in a mini series of blogs, so let me leave you with this one thing that is bugging me the most...not sure bugging is the correct word actually.....maybe 'erking' or 'interesting' me.... ;) I love getting complements from people, who doesn't right?! Amazingly, I get quite a lot of complements from people at the moment (far more than I deserve), but what happens when those complements stop coming. How am I going to feel? I have read about other fellow sleevers who find the time from 6 months out quite difficult as compliments are less commonly received and they are noticing more subtle changes than extreme ones. How am I going to deal with this, without FOOD!? I know I am stressing about what may or may not happen, but I have noticed that the tone of the complements have certainly changed recently. I am starting to get more of the "don't lose to much more as your face will start to hollow out", or "how are you going to make sure that you don't just keep losing weight?"....like hello! I am still many many kilograms heavier than you so my face is not going to start looking like a zombie anytime soon... people just have to get used to the newer looking me. I am almost the same person inside, albeit a lot happier and fitter... but I know that I look strikingly different.
How do I explain that the girl in this photo looks unrecognisable to me, but at the same time, I still feel like I look like this girl? How can you disassociate yourself from a reflection you have come to know as you. I guess it still comes down to the fact that I may never completely stop being the big, unconfident girl that I have been for 28 years. The question I need to figure out the answer to is,
is it better to try to forget the girl I was or to always have a little bit of her inside of me?
I better be off, starting my
Twentysix Bites weekend.
Much love, Theresa
